I know there are doors in my life that I never want to open again. But it is difficult to deny they are there, and perhaps only right to open them sometimes. For when making resolutions, we need to look back on past mistakes. To be sure they are not repeated, but also to make better the return encounter.' Victor Bryant takes a cathartic journey through four seasons of emotional turmoil that will strike a chord with anyone searching for meaning in love and loss. The harsh winter snows of January and February precede the funeral of a friend and anxiety about the future. Spring brings the promise of better times ahead, new relationships and memories of a mother's love, but April showers portend a summer tragedy as the author relives the loss of his mother and his difficulty in coming to terms with it. Feelings of autumnal loneliness and loss are tempered by a period of great change - an Indian summer - and fears that time is running out are replaced by the hope a new year brings.